I'm talking to you, me.

hey me. since no reads this blog I am talking directly to you, me. I hate what you have become. a failure on every degree, everything you have attempted in your life has failed completely. the only thing that has succeeded was your marriage. that is only because of your wife. your getting older, and most of your opportunities have left you. this is your life, and you are about to loose what little you own and have left. ultimately I am disappointed with you. read over this in days ahead and think only of your dreams, and failures. you are to blame for your life. no one else. maybe it is not too late to fix this disaster you created, then again maybe it is.

Now last years endless list of new year resolutions, actually put my life on track, and might of put me to be a bit more goal oriented. neat! Now I am 2 months from graduating from the culinary program at the food bank and finding myself looking at colleges for it. Only real draw back is that i have lost most feeling in my feet. I also find myself on an actual road towards getting married. apparently new years resolution take several years to accomplish. also if your ever going to a wedding convention thing, don't eat. you will fill up on gallons of cake and appetizers there. now 11 months until the big day. time to loose eleven hundred pounds so all those long lost relatives wont see me looking like a hundred gallons of donut oil. i like the way loosing weight sounds infinitely easier than it is. thanks to all of you for your support, I will write a personal message to all the individuals who have cheered me on. Thanks honey, sorry I forgot it do the laundry.

ps. the picture is of me and my lady

Sorry for the seven month hiatus. I have tried to accomplish as many resolutions for 2010 and pretty much failed on all levels. well, mostly. I am now planning a wedding for December. (yay, I win.) and have become a student in a culinary program at the food bank in my city. Though I had to quit my job to do it and am living off my rapidly declining savings. So now I will have to concoct a more easier list of resolutions, instead of making a wish list for mr impossible. Here is a more modern picture of me by the way.
I still have not given up on the other resolutions but I'm turning them into aspirations. the site, submissions, art still being worked on. There still may be hope for me yet.

texas august, texas hell heat

Here I am many months later. hit a year at this current gig of mine. on most of my resolutions, are in progressing stages. and I am not just saying that. Still working on the new job. japanese, art, site, youtube, etc so on. and I broke my girlfriend down to actual plan on a wedding.

this resolution, has been too great for even me. been so busy I am still behind on madmen, and dexter. pretty much cut tv out altogether. alot of work to do still. I lost 2 lbs in 6 months. is that a start?
wish to get in shape to the point that I could actually pull ash costume off flawlessly. think I can do it? I give you three guesses and the first two don't count.

I had a secret a dream of mine might actually come true. I just need a little miracle and alot of time.
someone in a buissness, I always wanted to break into since I was 10 is willing to look at my stuff.

oooooh yyyyeeaaaahhhhh!!!!!

Wish me luck only follower, which is my almost wife.

I am not down for the count yet!

It has been awhile. I think I am overwhelmed. I need to focus on just one or two things at once, instead of 5 and 7, this way I will go in no direction fast. I need a teacher, to help keep my dreams in balance. Still have not found a better job, there is one out there I just know it! I am thinking of saving up for silk screen print parts. I have alot of bizarre cool designs, there are so many ideas and dreams that refuse to settle for a mundane life. I am charged for the future, I just need someone to kick my ass into gear when I get sidetracked. I can do this! only 7 months to go to destroy 22 new years relolution. I am also thinking of going on a 2k aday calorie diet. cards, and script is next. I wonder how vespy is doing on the site. Don't give up on me yet, we have a future to attend to!!

frustration and , well .... frustration

There is no progress to post. I am still looking for a better job, to fund my other resolutions.
hmmm, I might need to rethink this one. I also gained 5 pounds. japanese, shows so little improvement, its like rolling a baseball into the grand canyon and claiming you filled it.

I will need everyone to wish me luck on this one!

bite the curb doom and gloom!!

Right now on I have sadly not much to update. I have not progressed in the japanese language much, though I am learning many new words. monosugoi! The better job search is just going. But never fret me, I am determined more than ever, to rise to the challenge of great employment!
I have also unstuck myself from the comic story writers block I have been having for the past 6 months. Though my job is on the line once again.

On a side note I have finished my awesome ash costume from the evil dead series.
truth be told I have been ash for about three years now.

Also, I have saved enough money to do some cooking for a few nights. pictures will follow.
many new recipes I wish to try, though it will wait for the new job. Excitement afoot.

Last week it snowed for an hour at work, on my lunch break I made a snowman, unfortunately I ran out of ice.

I named him darryl.
He passed away an hour later.